Wow. Okay. So Deirdre learned the truth, it just wasn’t what she was expecting… what any of us were expecting.
New DG Post: The Door – Part Three
Here Be Dragons
Wow. Okay. So Deirdre learned the truth, it just wasn’t what she was expecting… what any of us were expecting.
Huh. I did not see any of that coming.
I have many, many thoughts on the matter…but none of them are important.
Our members risked their lives and sanity to give her a choice of what to do with her life. A choice she didn’t have before. She made her choice. I can’t fault her for taking the opportunity. It wasn’t what I was hoping, but maybe nothing is forever.
I suppose we should tell Lauren there’s another journal of magiq laying about in Montreal. At least it could be put to use instead of rotting there.
I am SHOOK.
But… Deirdre gets to have a choice in what her life will be. Maybe she needs time to grieve and heal. Maybe this won’t be the last we see of her.
I have said it once, and I will say it again, it is NEVER a bad idea to play nice with the new Cagliostro. Plus she helped us out not too long ago, it might not hurt to repay the favour if we can find a way to get ahold of her.
And yes, we knew this was a possibility when we gave her the choice. It was a risk worth taking and it is a bummer this played out how it did. I know Deirdre is probably feeling overwhelmed and hurt and lost. The best we can do is be ready to support her if she ever wants to come looking our way again. We know she is in very good hands with Cole and he will do everything he can to support her in whatever way she decides to live her life, Magiq or no Magiq.
While I think it would be brilliant to help Lauren acquire the journal, let’s be careful on how we contact her seeing as Kemetic Solutions runs the Cagliostro email server.
In hindsight, if she left it at the park in Toronto then Colby probably grabbed it. She never referred to Colby and his friends as Mountaineers. We always assumed they were but maybe they’re just a bunch of retired researchers who went on with their lives. They may have no idea we exist.
I don’t think we have any way to find them. As for the Red House? It sounds interesting but we’ve never heard of it before.
You know, today we’ve been quoted at by a mad man. We’ve possibly sent someone off to be caught and interrogated on ‘the chair’. And we’ve had the Green heir quit on us.
Could we just skip to tomorrow please? Maybe we should just all go to sleep and meet back here in 16 hours or so? Hope for a better day?
Ok, I’m going to try to be overly optimistic about this…but I think this isn’t necessarily a bad thing? Deirdre found the truth of her parents, finally, and now she made her own decision rather than simply following her father’s footsteps. And in a way, this was good for her - she’s determined not to let herself be lost to the same obsession that took away her parents. She’s grounding herself with people like Cole. She made her own choice to not be defined by the Monarch Papers, to have her own life and do what’s gonna make her happy. I can’t help but see that as a good thing.
I mean, I know it’s not perfect. Certainly not the grand magiqal adventure we were all expecting. But Deirdre is making her own path now and that’s also something to celebrate. Maybe at some point, she’ll decide to pursue magiq again, but it should be on her own terms.
I haven’t talked to Eaves off-forum in a while and I think I’m overcompensating.
Honestly, I’m in a whirlwind. Thornmouth happiness at all this new information, then human-being devastation at what she’s going through and possibly losing her.
I will play devil’s advocate to your overly optimistic for just one second. (Then I will stop being a jerk for a few hours, promise)
Hiding from the world in the one place you feel safe ARE her father’s footsteps.
What I hope comes from this is we get to a point where DG isn’t being yanked around the emotional spectrum by what’s come before and she gets to decide for herself what to do. Shutting the truth out is no different than following it blindly. What I want for her, what I have ever wanted for her, is for her to have a chance to be her. I hope she gets it.
I’m going to rant here. This is cheaper than therapy and the county has asked me to stop doing this on public transport so this is my best place. I’m going to put this in spoiler tags because this may be completely useless to anyone other than me.
[spoiler]Sullivan - WHAT THE H
LL ARE YOU DOING?! W! T! F!
I’ve taken Sullivan’s “side” if you will for all of this. I have a young daughter myself. I would do anything to protect her. I’d jump on a handgrenade. I’d drag a flock of nuns with me if I thought that would make the difference. It’s biological, and it’s borderline irrational but there it is. And I just have to protect my daughter from ‘mundane’ threats, not creatures piercing the veil between worlds and stuff.
Rationally, in hindsight, I’m against what he did to Deidre shielding her from the world he saw. But I have complete understanding why he did it, and I can’t claim I wouldn’t do the exact same thing in his place. I probably would have. I might have done it twice.
Sullivan said in his notes his deepest wish was for Deidre to see the world he sees. That’s why the reversal spell even existed. That’s why he led us to it. That’s why the Book of Briars enabled him and helped us find him.
Is this the damned truth you really wanted her to see, Sullivan? Is this why Cole could have been flambéed? “Dear Deidre, I tried to steal you and your mother tried to kill me. Oh, and there’s no end to this path I created for you. Love you!” By the Creator’s Mighty Beard I am beyond pissed off at this. Writer her a damned note explaining it, and substitute ‘gun’ for ‘magic artifact’ and you could have told her this entire story without even mentioning Magiq at all. "I tried to steal you, your mom shot me and injured me, and our lives were ruined. ’ Same story and doesn’t involve world travel, a magical book jerking us around and smash a woman’s hopes and dreams into the rocks over and over.
When Deidre almost gave up two weeks ago and Sullivan posted a note in the journal saying “Don’t give up, Deidre”…is THIS why he didn’t want her to give up? So she could get to the REAL reason why she wanted to give up a few weeks from now when it was way more dramatic and emotionally devastating to her?
And the @The_Book_of_Briars , you’re not idle in all this. We devoted 2 entire fragments to finding, and casting a cure for Deidre, just so we could destroy her? I thought we were helping people here? What’s next? We’re going to free Portentica just so you can tell her her Santa Claus isn’t real?!
There’s one reason I’m not more angry about this (yeah, that could happen). I’ve reread Sullivan’s notes about Deidre, and more importantly about his own life. Sullivan didn’t have a choice to see what he saw. He regretted it, wondered if things could be otherwise. He wanted Deidre to see the best of what he saw, but not the worst. He didn’t know what to do.
The one potential, tiny, saving grace in this is this was Sullivan’s way of showing Deidre her true choice. Telling Deidre ‘hey you can be an average someone or a join a magiqal world!’ wasn’t a real choice. Would anyone chose the former there? He needed her to see the magiq, to experience it. He needed her to see the chase, the ups and downs of following a path like he and her mom had. He needed her to see all the best, and all the worst, even the worst possible outcome. Only then could she make a true choice.
Sullivan, you better have this ace up your sleeve. If not, I swear I will find your remains, dig you up, and kick your bony ass back and forth from each of the Six Corners to the next. I’m watching you and @The_Book_of_Briars closely. Do not F this up.[/spoiler]
There. I feel better now.